I was the girl with the magic bullet, trying to weave fantasy into the world, trying to make the myth flesh.
And sometimes I succeeded, in that little cozy room with the lights that winked amethyst, that winked rose-water pink, cast soft shadows on glittering wall tapestries. Rigid and straight-backed, often I failed, but sometimes I wrought such beauty.
Does the joy outweigh the pains, I wonder? In the sea of time, do I count it as a loss or gain?
Hindsight isn’t always 20/20, but sometimes the fog does lift for a little while. Sometimes we do come out of the forest.
Tassajara, what did Ginsberg pray for? What steep yellow lights have laid your insides so bare and foreign?
The night folds her wings around us.